Fear

[hallow_entity]

Sometimes I have a hard time dealing with it... With fear. I have had so many "scares" in this life that I have stopped being afraid, stopped being surprised or startled by those results. But lately fear has been consuming me. I feel so afraid. So scared of what is to come. I do not usually feel this fear... It has made me closed off, depressed, and different. I don't even know how to deal with it. It has consumed me... Even though I know I should not let it. I feel fear... Not my usual paranoia in life. Just raw fear... Fear of so many things now. Fear is such an odd emotion. It is like a wall. A wall that I can not seem to get around, or climb, or anything. Just a solid wall that is cutting me off from this world. From everyone. Fear has made me be someone I am usually not. Snappy, angry, frustrated, sad. Fear is a powerful thing it seems...

Comments

[kyraa]

Fear of losing something? Doing something wrong? Being harmed?

[hallow_entity]

Fear of never getting better. Never feeling healthy. Fear that this tumor might not be benign. Fear of another too-close-for-comfort car accident. Fear that I won't have the courage to go on or get back up... Fear of something else that will go wrong.... Luck has not been with me for these three years...

[kyraa]

*offers hug*

Live life to the fullest. Don't settle. Don't wait.

Take a leap of faith and find the few precious things that will make living even one more moment worth it (:

[hallow_entity]

Thanks. I could use a hug.
And thank you for reminding me... Sometimes I forget to really live and be happy in life.